Greatest... but also sadness.

One of the best moment of my life but also one of the most heart wrenching. It was Fourth of July 2008. I was at my girlfriends we were having one of the best days we have had! Laughing a lot, spending all day with each other, hanging out, having fun and being madly in love. We were getting all ready to go to my Dad's Condo downtown. (It is one of the best views to watch fireworks from Indianapolis. You can go on the rooftop of the building and everyone is out there enjoying the great view.) Erin's Mom, Dad, older sister and her friend were coming. And it was great because that is the first time my dad really got to meet my girlfriends parents. So it was a pretty big deal to me! We all were having a great time. Everyone was bonding great, laughing a ton, grilling out and eating some good food. I was really happy. We took a lot of photos from that night too. Just snapping photos left and right maybe because I just wanted to remember the night, I don't know. But I went back to look at those photos. And I realized that every picture I had with my dad I could see in his eyes sadness. Every picture his eyes were never happy. And eyes do not lie. I know my dad pretty well and I know by a picture whether he is honestly happy and stuff or not. I never realized that until very recently when I looked back at them. I guess I never really wanted to see it. He had so much sadness in those eyes. He missed his family. He missed having Fourth of July with his wife and kids and putting on a show for them. I know that because that's what he was always talking about. I wish i would have realized that sooner. So that had to be one of the best days of my life because I was so happy with my relationship and that my father was meeting my girl's parents that I was in love with and her sister. But It was also sad too because I knew in his eyes in those pictures that he wasn't happy and that he missed something in his life and I realize what that was now, his family!